Wow, its been so long diaryland. How have you been? I see you are still plugging along as am I. I wish I could come to you with good news. It seems I never do. I think that I only write here when things are tough. It makes for a very depressing diary.Now that I thing about it something is different about this re-entry into writing. You see, I have been in the depths of depression for sometime now. I have been depressed for the better part of this past year (since about April '08). This depression has cost me friends, my job, and a loving partner. Sounds like your typical like sucks scenario, and I'd be willing to agree with you if not for the feeling that I'm having right now. Hope. I've been saying that I have hope for the future, but something was missing. I was missing the feeling. Where deep down in your gut you know that something s going to make today better than the last. I know that today will be better and I'm not sure what it will bring. I got up today knowing that my higher power loves me, brings the bright shining day to me. I will get up today and go out and beat back my depression. I will do so by having my coffee, smoking a cigarette, and then going for a walk. After that, who knows? I can't be scared of the unknown. Hiding isn't an option. I have to live each day. That means not hiding in a game through day and night. Eat, drink, breathe, move, discover, and soak it in. That's how you live. I was wasting away, biding my time until I die. I won't wait for death. Instead I'm going to go out and live life. It's been a long time, but I will say this to the world. I'm back. |
January 29, 2009 at 10:19 am |
A chorus of whispers |
Get up, get going - January 29, 2009 |
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